It’s official: I’m mental

Hi everybody, my name is Hollie and I’m crazy. There I said it. That wasn’t so hard. Phew!

So I went to the doctor with my mum (or mom for those of you that don’t speak English ;-)) and we talked about the bleeding and the doctor said that as I’m being seen by specialists in November I should discuss that with them then. Then she signed me off sick for 2 weeks because she could tell that I need time to get over the emotional strain of my cycle – I think that translates as “you seem crazy, don’t go to work”!!! I haven’t been signed off work since I had my tonsils out when I was 20! She signed me off with anaemia so that work don’t know I’m crazy!

My boss has taken it well & we’ve agreed that I’ll finish off a few things from home today that are hanging over me & then I’ll relax for a bit. After the first week off I’ll start doing more from home before I go back to the office at the end of the 2 weeks.

This is good news. I’m full of energy and enthusiasm for getting old Hollie back. My husband says that when he rules the world I will be his “Ambassador of fun”, he isn’t being ironic, I am generally recognised as someone who is fun. I want to be her again.

So I’m coming up with some rules for my time off to make sure that that happens:

1. I will spend no more than 15minutes a day on Facebook, Twitter, babyandbump, WordPress and google.
2. I will exercise every week day and be active and outdoorsy at the weekends too.
3. I will cook a healthy, fresh, homemade meal every day.
4. I will get into housework routines that I can maintain whilst back at work without feeling overwhelmed.
5. If I want to bake, then I will bake. It makes me happy. I refuse to feel guilty about something that makes me happy at the moment.
6. I will fill at least 1 dustbin bag full of clutter each day until my house looks like I want it to look.

Does anybody have any other good rule suggestions?

Are any of you one of those people whose house is permanently tidy and clean? If so, got any tips for maintaining that and working full time?

I know it’s mad but I feel like having a baby can bring chaos & maybe if I spend the next few months organising myself a bit better then maybe that’s why it didn’t work this time: to give me a system to organise my life before a baby turns my world upside down in the best possible way. We’ll see I suppose! X


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9 responses to “It’s official: I’m mental

  1. I try to keep things “picked up” and do most of the heavy cleaning on weekends. Plus I’m one to throw things away if I haven’t used it in a few months – I hate clutter. When I buy new clothes I pick a couple shirts I haven’t really worn and donate them to Goodwill.
    I like your plan!

    • I like that idea. I take after my parents. I keep everything and then once a year I start a massive clear out and then lose interest halfway through. This is the longest that I’ve kept going already. I will see a difference, I will, I will!!

  2. Your plan is brill. I have been doing something similar. It feels great as things start looking better. x

  3. idioticinfertility

    I’m glad you got some time off to recuperate. Personally, I found that when I was actually starting to want to do, well, ANYTHING besides nothing, I was coming back to a place of better mental health.

    • Yes I had a very blah Saturday but today has been awesome, so I feel like I’m making baby steps back to normality. I got a questionnaire from my therapist – I have a therapist! – British people don’t do therapy! Anyway, as I was saying, I need to fill that in & send it back and then I can make my first appointment with her.

  4. I enjoyed reading this, it reminded me so much of…me! lol. Writing lists of what to do when I have time. And I’m still sitting in bed on WordPress when I should be following the lists! And yes I’m hormonally mental too 🙂

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