So, I’ve been spotting for 3 days. Not just your average normal person spotting but full-on bright red & clotty spotting. “How do you know that it’s not AF?” I hear you cry, “because my body is fcuked up, this happens a lot, and I don’t actually know that it’s not AF, I’m just assuming that it’s not as I haven’t had any AF like pains yet” I reply. I am assuming that tomorrow the spotting will tailor off and then on Friday I will be bleed-free and worried that I’ve missed my period and have to wait another month and then BAM I’ll come on on Saturday and commence stabbing on Sunday. We’ll see.
I’m desperate to get started now. It has been hanging over me for 13 months. There has been so much uncertainty and worry and I’m finally going to find out how I respond to stims and what quality my eggs will be.
I’m going to book a week off work from the day of egg collection so I need to come on so that I can work out when that is going to be. I’m suddenly feeling very excited and nervous and emotional. Bring it on!!!
Time is no longer linear. It either draaaaaaaaags or it flies by. And right now it is seriously flying by. Soon I’ll be starting this thing that has been hanging over me ever since we got the male factor diagnosis in July last year. I know that I can do this, but that doesn’t mean that I want to.
What is everyone planning to tell their work about time off for scans etc? I need some inspiration!! I was going to tell my work but then my colleague got pregnant so in my mid year review my boss told me I’m not allowed to get pregnant until she gets back from maternity leave in July next year *awkward*.
How long are you all planning to have off post transfer? How are you handling the waiting? I could do with some tips for relaxation techniques that don’t include wine or chocolate!! Yoga and acupuncture rock my world but I definitely relax better with a 150g bar of green & blacks almond chocolate mmmmmmmmmmm.
So, I have my IVF co-ordination appt on 9th August and right now I am trying to pass the time in the quickest way possible. I’ve stayed away from the blog as I had 5 friends announce their pregnancies in one week and I kind of lost my mojo temporarily, but I’m back and getting very excited now. I should be ready to commence stabbing in 3-4 weeks *smiles nervously*
I have watched all 4 series of True Blood that are out on DVD in the UK whilst sulking about my stupid, fertile friends and i am a little bit in love with Alexander Skaarsgard. Is it weird to watch people on the TV and think to yourself “i bet they’re fertile”? *sigh* you don’t need to answer, i know it’s weird.
DH has booked a weekend in Rome for straight after the co-ordination appt so I can’t wait for that, it gives me something slightly less daunting to look forward to. I probably won’t even be spotting at that point in my cycle so who knows, maybe I’ll get pregnant – pah!!!