I’m on the train to my latest scan on day 7 of stims. I had my first scan on day 5. There were 7 follicles: 5 on the right, with the largest measuring 14mm and then 2 small ones on the left. I didn’t get the measurements on any of the others. I was originally told that I was going in for a scan and bloodtest but then when I got there the doc said that they don’t normally do blood tests, which I thought was weird but I went with it. She said that she wanted to see me again in 2 days time and that she expected a lot to happen in 2 days.
They kept my gonal F injection at the same low dosage of 112.5iu & told me to start cetrotide injections, which are nowhere near as fun as Gonal F, although today is my third day on cetrotide and I think I have finally mastered it!
What I hadn’t anticipated was the rush of emotions that I would feel at the scan. As soon as she said we had follicles I was on the verge of happy tears. She showed me the right ovary first and when there were 5 there I nearly burst with happiness. I have been really concerned about OHSS so I was so pleased that I didn’t have too many. I was also worried about not responding as I was on such a low dose of Gonal F but 5 follicles on one ovary felt like a really positive number. Then she switched to the left side and showed me the 2 small follicles and I was immediately disappointed. Obviously 7 is a great number and once I left the room I felt really happy but in there it was such a rollercoaster of emotions that I had not prepared myself for.
This morning I am much more prepared for it and I am excited to see how much growth there has been, if a little nervous! I am hoping that they will start to estimate egg retrieval dates today as the not knowing is killing me!
I’ve got my first acupuncture appt since I started this cycle and I can’t wait to see her, I’ve been seeing her regularly for 16months now and she is so kind and lovely. I know that no matter what they say at the scan, she will make me happy, relaxed and positive by the time I leave the room.
I’ll report back after my scan. Wish me luck! X
This morning I injected myself with 112.5IU of Gonal F. It was a piece of cake. I went back to bed and slept for another 2.5 hours and then got up and went swimming LIKE A NORMAL PERSON. This is a piece of cake. I can totally do this. And if this cycle is unsuccessful I know that I will do another cycle armed with the lessons learned in this cycle whatever they may be. If I keep saying that it is a piece of came maybe someone will bring me some cake. I am craving cake. I promised my husband I would cut out the junk food while cycling. Today is day one of my junk food ban and I always find the first day the hardest.
The biggest lesson that Infertility has taught me in the nearly 3 years of struggling with it is that the anticipation of everything is worse than the reality. I was shaking like a leaf this morning but as soon as the needle was in my numb, iced skin I knew that I could totally do this. And I have all of this long weekend to get used to it before I need to throw getting ready for work into the mix.
So, I’ve been spotting for 3 days. Not just your average normal person spotting but full-on bright red & clotty spotting. “How do you know that it’s not AF?” I hear you cry, “because my body is fcuked up, this happens a lot, and I don’t actually know that it’s not AF, I’m just assuming that it’s not as I haven’t had any AF like pains yet” I reply. I am assuming that tomorrow the spotting will tailor off and then on Friday I will be bleed-free and worried that I’ve missed my period and have to wait another month and then BAM I’ll come on on Saturday and commence stabbing on Sunday. We’ll see.
I’m desperate to get started now. It has been hanging over me for 13 months. There has been so much uncertainty and worry and I’m finally going to find out how I respond to stims and what quality my eggs will be.
I’m going to book a week off work from the day of egg collection so I need to come on so that I can work out when that is going to be. I’m suddenly feeling very excited and nervous and emotional. Bring it on!!!
So, I have my IVF co-ordination appt on 9th August and right now I am trying to pass the time in the quickest way possible. I’ve stayed away from the blog as I had 5 friends announce their pregnancies in one week and I kind of lost my mojo temporarily, but I’m back and getting very excited now. I should be ready to commence stabbing in 3-4 weeks *smiles nervously*
I have watched all 4 series of True Blood that are out on DVD in the UK whilst sulking about my stupid, fertile friends and i am a little bit in love with Alexander Skaarsgard. Is it weird to watch people on the TV and think to yourself “i bet they’re fertile”? *sigh* you don’t need to answer, i know it’s weird.
DH has booked a weekend in Rome for straight after the co-ordination appt so I can’t wait for that, it gives me something slightly less daunting to look forward to. I probably won’t even be spotting at that point in my cycle so who knows, maybe I’ll get pregnant – pah!!!