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Yeesh, what next?!

Hi all, this mornings scan was the most painful yet. I am a small lady and I wasn’t really built for child birth. I was barely built for intercourse. Dildocam is always a tad uncomfortable but the man who scanned me this morning felt like he tore me a new one. Then he said “here is your womb, which is backwards, which makes you even more special” eewwww! Creepy!

He proceeded to measure the follies very half-arsedly & lots of mine were showing as over 20mm. When he withdrew his torture implement it had blood on it & not just a little bit. He’s told me that if this cycle isn’t successful I need to go and have another smear test to check for abnormal cells. I’ve had 2 really recently & they’ve never shown up anything before. I’m pretty sure he did that to me. I’m feeling a bit crampy and a bit angry right now but most of all I am tired. I have just got home and got into bed and I am going to nap for an hour or so and hopefully I’ll wake up in a better mood!

I’m triggering tonight at 21:30, so right in the middle of the Paralympics athletics final! Tune in and see if you spot me, I’ll be the girl with the union jack espadrilles & a sharps box!! I’m staying in a hotel after the games & it’s a chain that have really comfy beds so I’m looking forward to that already! Then one day of work tomorrow. I’m going to book Friday onwards off as holiday & then call in sick on Tuesday & Wednesday. If I need a day 2 transfer then I’ll have to call in on Thursday too but I plan to have enough embies to get to day 3. It looks like I’ll only have 6 mature eggs though, which makes day 2 look more likely. I can’t wait to know one way or another.

I’ll keep you updated! X


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Cramp cramp cramp

Today I have mostly been cramping and pooing, which generally means one thing: tomorrow will be CD1. I won’t count my chickens until they’ve hatched, this may drag on for another day before it really gets going, but if I was a betting kind of girl I’d put a tenner on tomorrow being the day.

This will be brilliant timing if it works as the first 3 days of injections would be on days when I don’t have work as Monday next week is a bank holiday in the UK. In theory I will know what I’m doing by Tuesday & I shouldn’t be a mad panic in the morning. IN THEORY.

That would make Wednesday 29th my first scan appointment as the doc said he wanted to see me on my 5th day of stimming despite the paperwork saying that I wouldn’t get a scan until day 9! I’ve decided that my story for that scan is going to be a dentists appointment as we’ve recently gotten dental cover through work so it’s very believable.

I have acupuncture on Friday 31st, which I’m already looking forward to. DH has an appointment that morning too. I’m really pleased with him for having acupuncture as he doesn’t like needles and he’s not a big believer in alternative therapies but he came along to a session I had on my birthday in December last year and he really liked the lady & she showed him the needles & stuff & he has had a couple of appointments since then.

I don’t spend much time being grateful for my husband but this week he has decided he’s going to get into the routine of giving me a footrub in bed every night before I go to sleep to help with any pre-IVF anxiety – how cute is that?! And when I met him on the train home last night he had these with him


So right now I’m feeling grateful, excited, and crampy!!


Filed under The countdown to IVF #1

Spot, spot, spotting… When is day one day one?!

Hey guys,


So, I’ve been spotting for 3 days. Not just your average normal person spotting but full-on bright red & clotty spotting. “How do you know that it’s not AF?” I hear you cry, “because my body is fcuked up, this happens a lot, and I don’t actually know that it’s not AF, I’m just assuming that it’s not as I haven’t had any AF like pains yet” I reply. I am assuming that tomorrow the spotting will tailor off and then on Friday I will be bleed-free and worried that I’ve missed my period and have to wait another month and then BAM I’ll come on on Saturday and commence stabbing on Sunday. We’ll see.

I’m desperate to get started now. It has been hanging over me for 13 months. There has been so much uncertainty and worry and I’m finally going to find out how I respond to stims and what quality my eggs will be.

I’m going to book a week off work from the day of egg collection so I need to come on so that I can work out when that is going to be. I’m suddenly feeling very excited and nervous and emotional. Bring it on!!!


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It’s nearly time!!

So, I have my IVF co-ordination appt on 9th August and right now I am trying to pass the time in the quickest way possible. I’ve stayed away from the blog as I had 5 friends announce their pregnancies in one week and I kind of lost my mojo temporarily, but I’m back and getting very excited now. I should be ready to commence stabbing in 3-4 weeks *smiles nervously*

I have watched all 4 series of True Blood that are out on DVD in the UK whilst sulking about my stupid, fertile friends and i am a little bit in love with Alexander Skaarsgard. Is it weird to watch people on the TV and think to yourself “i bet they’re fertile”? *sigh* you don’t need to answer, i know it’s weird.

DH has booked a weekend in Rome for straight after the co-ordination appt so I can’t wait for that, it gives me something slightly less daunting to look forward to. I probably won’t even be spotting at that point in my cycle so who knows, maybe I’ll get pregnant – pah!!!


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